Friday, June 28, 2013


i'm going to linnanmäki amusement park in a sec with my little sisters, and i was hyper anxious about clothes, because everything i own is either very flowy or too short, which don't mix well with an amusement park. so i decided to go with a very basic junkie mall goth look but add some white trash details, since i went comfort shopping and found a jacket i'd had my eye on was now on sale.

everything except shoes: h&m
shoes: y.r.u with unif laces

god my hair is UGLY from behind. whatever. the jacket makes up for it.


bye for now

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

OUTFISTS and apparently a spontaneous rant

not a whole lot qoing on tbh. last week ilmari was on vacation and since i never get hung over we went a bit overboard with the partying... but it was all fun. plus you wouldn't believe the money one saves when taking a taxi is completely pointless because you live in the middle of it all.

i've really tried to be a better 2013er, so i have a few shitty outfit pictures from my phone.
before though, i'll just say this, because i'm forced because of what society has been shoving down my throat my whole life; i know i'm not thin. but i'm not going to apologize. i was thin once, and to me, it's not worth what you have to do to achieve it and to keep it up, because i may be 20 kilos bigger but in my eyes i look the same, and now i can think about other things too. but i'm still only saying this because i feel inferior and worthless because of my body and i want everyone to know i was worthy at least once upon a time.
thanks so much, world.

last day before moving from kallio btw

knit: topshop
skirt: h&m
shoes: vagabond

jacket: thrifted
top: cnt remember tbh
skirt: unif
shoes: unif
panda backpack: thrifted

haHAHAH oh god why am i so bad at this

knit: h&m
dress: zara
shoes: vagabond
panda backpack: thrifted

this outfit i'm more proud of than i want to say since the picture of it looks this bad, but with a single black safety pin, i turned a basic drapey hipster bleh outfit into ☽✝dracula goth✝☾ and i'm just so very proud yknow

dress: gina tricot
sheer blouse (or cape, in this outfit): cheap monday
shoes: office
panda backpack: thrifted

i'm also suffering from hair despair. i hate what's stuck on my head now and i don't know what to do with it. because honestly, i can't do what i would've generally done which is dye it light pink or something because everyone has it and so it's no statement and it's not cool or edgy and it's just like... i've been robbed my thing.

embedding this doesn't even work, but you should watch it. because that blonde kid, you're all going to look like that in 6 months. i swear. + THERE WE HAVE THOSE DAMN SHOES AGAIN (platform work boots), they're being so mean. i have to buy them. HAVE TO. (i have to buy the with tequila by deandri, too, if they ever restock them in my size) i have a silver jacket like that, i got it from jonttu because i was going to buy the same one like in 2007 but then i didn't and then she got bored of it. it's the best jacket. so my "biking kid in the new robyn video"-look is almost complete, i'll just have to dye my hair blonde. maybe this solves my hair despair tho.

i'll watch the new pretty little liars now and then go hang with aino and then go to work.
so much love,

Thursday, June 20, 2013

Wednesday, June 12, 2013


ugh ugh ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

went to solestruck for a specific pair of shoes and, because i'm a masochist idiot, decided to browse the new arrivals and the universe is out to bankrupt me, i swear. ffffffffff.

first and foremost, the all black goners dropped. i've been waiting for this for ages and like ugh FUCK  why why why the one month i'm broke????????

second, another pair of shoes i've been so into conseptionally ever since i first saw similar ones on eriko nakao in a shoot like two years ago i've been close to making them myself, the motherfucking work platform boot, and it's by buffalo too, so it's definitely nice quality and all. a tiny light at the end of the tunnel is that may not make them in a size small enough because it's a men's shoe.

and then there's the hansel by deandri which i just saw irl the other day on a totally marvelous-looking babe, and now i want to have them too (´Д`。)

pretty little liars returned, and while it fills my heart with joy, mona was wearing these hypercute jc pumps in the first episode and they're on sale now and my head is bursting.

but i think i'll go for the hansels and goners, unless they do release the work boots in a 39, because then i'll have to have them.

i don't know what's been going on with me the past year because i'm not even into shoes. i guess it's just that there's finally the kind of shoes a like and i have to hoard as many as possible because then platforms aren't going to be fashionable for another 20 years, and finding pretty platforms when they're out of fashion is a fucking pain, i'm telling you.

first three pix from solestruck and last one from nasty gal.

Monday, June 10, 2013


while on the subject of unif, i mentioned getting the mermaid pink hellbounds a while back. i also got the mermaid skater skirt because i just can't resist this tacky pink that shimmers in greens and stuff. i had a bra in the same fabric and color a couple of years ago but i've since lost it, so it felt justified to hoard everything that looks similar.

anyway, here's something i wrote back when i first got my mermaid hellbounds, but i was probably too eager to go out and dazzle the world to ever post it; 

just received my mermaid pink hellbounds. there's nothing, absolutely nothing, more beautiful in this entire world, i'm telling you. no picture i've ever seen of them has done them justice. i feel like writing poetry about them, they look like a pink puddle of water with unicorn oil (idek what unicorn oil is, but regular oil sounds too ugly and mortal) floating on the surface. they're worth every penny and every time i f5ed ebay.

look at them glisten ♡o。.(✿ฺ。 ✿ฺ)

my hair is gross all the time, i don't know what to do with it anymore ughhhhhhhhhhhh 。:゚(╯﹏╰,)


we moved and now we've lived here for a little over a week without ne internets. today we got internets and i already feel much angrier and more elitist. maybe i should just quit the internet, it makes me intolerable. i'm too broke to internet shop right now, anyway, due to having to pay two rents this month. bleh.

in other news, it's summer and it's hot and it blows. nobody cares about us fat goths. what are we supposed to wear? i can't just wear daisy dukes and a "crop top" because people would just hurl all over me. i can't wear my plastic dresses nor can i wear my knits. even most of my shoes present a challenge. it's so hard. i've decided to buy myself a new pair of shoes as soon as i'm not broke anymore because my life is so hard.

it's between these two and unif's goners once they release them in all black, but i'm not even going to link the leopard ones because someone skimming this might misunderstand and think those are the ones i want and i just couldn't live with the shame, you know. unif is my favorite brand because their good stuff is so good it makes the bad stuff ok even though much of the bad stuff is really really really bad. i mean i hate all those "i smoke weed i'm so edgie"-things, because honestly smoking weed is about as edgy as sniffing poppers, this is one of the main reasons i can't even be on the internet generally anymore either. if you're going to make a big deal out of "doing drugs" then AT THE FUCKING LEAST DO SOME REAL DRUGS DAMMIT.

this is all for now.
toodles poodles.