1. Have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced?
lol yeah 

2. Does a kiss make you feel better?
no. i'm trying to abstain
 
3.Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?
no

4. Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in?
before

5. What did you do today?
cook, exercise, hang with ilmari, bake cookies. eat _tons_

6. Have you ever brushed your teeth while in the shower?
like once, i think

7. Have you had more than 3 boyfriends/girlfriends at the same time?
hahahaha. no

8. Have you thought about your own death?
yes :T

10. Would you rather be in a permanent relationship or play the field?
i'd like to be strong and independent but the heart wants what the heart wants which appears to be to stab itself every day, so


11. What is your favorite sport?


12. What color is your shower curtain?
don't have one

13. Have you ever had stitches?
no

15. Did you believe that boys/girls had cooties?
no

16. Do you know how to use chop sticks?
yes

17. Lyrics stuck in your head?
chorus of losing you by solange

18. Do you like the Red Sox or Yankees?
no opinion

19. What are you doing tomorrow?
excercising, hopefully eating a bit less

20. Who was the last person you couldn’t take your eyes off of?
ugh. _ugh_.

21. Have you ever given money to a homeless person?
yes

22. Have you ever run over an animal?
no

23. What is your favorite cereal?
deffo corn flakes

24. Have you ever had an Oreo with peanut butter?
ew no

25. What are you doing right at this moment?
this

26. Do you think its right for straight guys to get their tongue pierced?
#mmm yes

27. Where’s your favorite place(s) to be?
shibuya

28. What’s your favorite song?
come down to us by burial or whatever

29. Are you more of a coffee or alcohol drinker?
alcohol, i'd rather give up coffee for good

30. Have you ever thrown shoes on a telephone wire?
no

31. Have you ever been skinny dipping?
yea

32. Have you ever been arrested?
noe

33. Do you dream in black and white?
no

34. Do you talk in your sleep?
on occasion

35. Do you snore?
no

36.have you ever thought about being a model?
no

37. are you a redneck?
no :D

38. Funniest thing you heard all day?
oh shit. i forgot it, but it was a pun

39. Ever got a misquito bite on your face?
not that i recall

40 What are you afraid of?
in a crippling way: war, mental illness, being too shitty to be loved, something happening to shinji, getting fat

41. What is your favorite flavor with coffee?
peppermint but like once a year

42. What country would you like to visit?
south korea bc hi kimchi and booze fueled party culture ayy

43 Do you like someone?
i like almost everyone

44. Favorite fruit
cherries and pineapple

45. Do you like PB&J?
never tried it

46. Can you recite the alphabet backwards?
it'd be painful to watch but yes

47. What’s your middle name?
elise 

49. Need to get something off your chest?
_yes_. so much

50. How do you feel about your life right now? 
somewhat hopeful but as of right now it suuuux

hello hi

What are you wearing?
short checkered skirt, black shirt

How are you?
bored, sick and a tiny bit anxious but alright

What do you wish for right now?
i want to live a little more, see places and have more friends (s/o to my current friends tho, you're spectacular)



















Any plans for today?
sleep, sleep, sleep, binge on vitamins, hang with shinji watching netflix

Miss anyone?
i miss my friends because i can't go outside because i'm too tired and bending over and getting up hurts my head :(

Last thing you bought?
new chokers, two wristwatches and a new foundation on ebay whoop

Last time you laughed?
a while ago, when we watched the new episode of brooklyn 9-9

















Last time you cried?
yesterday, i just felt really safe and okay when ilmari was holding me

What are you currently reading?
nothing, to be perfectly honest

Last movie you saw?
mockingjay 1, probably. films are a bit tricky for me still, strangely

Favorite fruit?
tomato

Which celebrities have you been told you look like?
j-law
agyness deyn
eliza cummings
uma thurman in pulp fiction
alice glass
jenni vartiainen
jessie j
ellen page
anna karina
!!snow white!!  lol

i get a lot of this, so i guess i don't really look like anyone, i'm just pretty in a slightly quirky way and have a very dominating black bob lol

Do you get jealous easily?
yes

What language would you like to learn?
japanese, so i wouldn't have to deal with subtitles in anime and doramas

new lashes glued on me. hangin' with shinji my top bro with a surprise vocal appearance by ilmari, my partner 4 lyf.

everything is getting better. some setbacks are inevitable, but it's important to remember that doesn't mean it's back to square one.
evenings are often boring due to this city being boring and the weather getting colder and tv and films being mainly rubbish. i'm planning to make my life more sitcom-like, but finding people worth knowing seems to get harder the older you get. nevertheless, it will all be as lovely as before, i know it because i work so hard to achieve it.

(づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ

hi.

i've been a bit off for a while now.
first there was the getting married and 3-week honey moon in tokyo.

then there was the period of angst due to returning to finland. then i suffered from anxiety for 3 or 4 weeks and after that i've been somewhat depressed and moody. but it's getting better slowly. today, for the first time in a long time my feelings had nuances, like thy did when i was younger.

we've had a kitten for a week now. it's adorable and so pretty. it's named after shinji ikari.

this is from our hostel in tokyo, i'm cosplaying ilmari.



and this was a while back.




i'm busy downloading possible doramas to get addicted to now.
much love.

:( ):

1. Are you a very open or private person?
very open

2. What is your favourite Christmas movie?
love actually

3. When did you stop believing in Santa?
i don't remember, probably the same time as most kids

4. What do you get complimented on the most?
my face and how pleasant i am. and my voice

5. How are you feeling right now?
crushed, suicidal, tired, lonely, forgotten. just completely devastated

6. If money was no object, where would you move to?
some huge minimalist house made of concrete with mega windows and a spectacular view where i could grow my own food and never see anyone again

7. Who was the last person to make you cry?
i don't know, i've just been crying hysterically a few times today from being overly stressed and having absolutely no free time and nobody missing me

8. Did you make any resolutions for this year? What were they?
to quit smoking. today i smoked a pack in 8 hours so not doing the best job with that

9. Is there a song which can bring you to tears instantly?
cats in the cradle because of daddy issues, obvi

10. Who was the last person you talked about sex with?
everyone

11. How did you bring in the New Year?
sober and angry

12. Have you ever online dated?
no

13. Post a screen shot of your Twitter “Interactions” page.
don't know what that is even. i googled it and it was boring

14. Click on the messages tab on Facebook, post a screen shot (erase surnames for safety).
nah i'm too tired rly

15. Post a screenshot of your tumblr activity page.
no

16. Do you believe in soul mates?
yes, but not in a super deep way. some people just click better than others

17. Do you play video games?
yes, but not a lot because i'm very picky

18. What age do people usually mistake you for?
i don't know, i guess i look my age

19. What or whom do you miss right now?
xanax or alternatively rotting somewhere and growing into some nice flowers. i guess i really miss having a day off

20. What perfume do you wear?
couture couture by juice couture. an obscene amount, as always

大和撫子 lvl -666

i'm struggling on the inside with deciding between buying a light pink pvc skirt and buying a light blue pvc skirt and not buying any pvc skirts because i'm going to tokyo in a month ＿|￣|○

i'm so bored tho ＿|￣|○

why doesn't being bored and alone and on day 2 of a 12-day streak at work justify internet shopping anymore at almost 22 years old? f dat ay ＿|￣|○

i'm so bored i'm considering working on toning my hamstrings ＿|￣|○

so, i just made pizza from scratch after 8 hours of work. it was delish, apart from the crust that resembled an omelette a bit more than i would have hoped for (it was made of cauliflower and eggs) and so the deslih part was actually the topping and fucking up chorizo and tomatoes and cheese is too next level loser even for me, so i guess it wasn't very successful after all ＿|￣|○





i just want to drink stoli and sprite but i can't because i have to work and become fit ＿|￣|○

AYY

- i'd choose ketchup with my fries for the rest of my life over mayo in a heartbeat if i had to choose

- despite several attempts i've never managed to finish clueless

- i'll always be a bit of a weeaboo that didn't get laid when i was 14 on the inside

- my taste in food is very underwhelming and toddlerish

- i'm a pretty boring shag

- i'm extremely mediocre in almost all aspects except for taste and looks, thnk god i'm hella pretty at least

◕︿◕

new friend osmo
 from an old friend dollskill
snapped by beloved friend ☾


tbh i just posted because i wanted to use the emoticon in the title anywhere, so.
much love!

GOOGLE TRANSLATE系

BYE

NORMAL ACTIVITY 3: LOSER IDEC

having a break from playing crash bandicoot 3. i'll have to go and get my work keys from work where i left them today. i'm so angsty because i'm opening all weekend, so i need to be in bed by 1am :(:(:( BLEH! i need to do something big tonight, like eat out or see a movie at the cinema, otherwise i'll end up feeling like my life is slipping through my fingers lol.






it's like, i wish i'd post something actual some time so that these pictures of me in bed with my make up smeared all over my face would feel personal and something. but that's not how i roll, so.

JEFFREY CAMPBELL NIRVANA VS THE REAL DEAL

so the shoes i've been rambling on and on about since forever are officially sold out in my size and the chances of a restock are prolly very thin to none at all. however, partially fortunately, as i was browsing nasty gal a few weeks ago i came across the nirvana boot by jeffrey campbell.

jeffrey campbell has always made my skin crawl a bit even though i own a pair of glitter foxys and used to have a pair of night walks.


vs.


the nirvanas are uglier, the sole is just a few cm too low to actually be high enough for my liking and they're undoubtedly of much lower quality in addition to surely being sported by the #soft grunge people whom i have nothing against but weren't exactly the people i wanted to be associated with by buying the buffalo version. they're not really that much cheaper either. but i'm still very much considering buying them... does that make me a disgusting human being? i'll have to flip a coin or smthn.

IDK RLY RHO

wearing silly sohigh top by unif. looking icky and soulless (feeling the part rn). ghastly and haunted.








idk.

ICK

u know, i really want to be famous so everyone will want to interview me #lifegoals yo
bcuz i'm only posting so i can fill out this survey. again. i deleted all the hyperboring questions


1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
yes

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?
nay, just because i was such a stupid runt when i was 18. if i dated some dope 18-year-old i'd just feel like a failure and if they weren't dope i wouldn't do it anyway

3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?
like always lel

4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
i do. every day. hundreds of times

6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
i've only listened to sunday by sonic youth (♥♥ btw) and it doesn't remind me of anyone but myself

7. What exactly are you wearing right now?
mesh skirt, big pastel colored knit, choker, lingerie(!)

8. How often do you listen to music?
every two days or so

9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?
idk. neither? jeans i guess

11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?
well surely not antisocial lol. but no, i'm very social

12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘B’?
4shou

13. What about ‘S’?
4shou

14. Can you drive a stick shift?
no :((((((((

15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
yes :(((((((

16. Are you going out of town soon?
i sure hope so. if unif would stop taking all my money

17. When was the last time you cried?
today

18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?
yes

19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
yes! a hundred thousand times yes! i'd change them light pink or super blue or black

20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?
no. i doubt there's anyone i'd do absolutely everything for, like i want to stay away from all genocide and torture and rape

21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.
slight headache

22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
not if it's random guys, no. ew.

23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?
yes

24. What are you sitting on right now?
sofa

25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?
ya like everyone

26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
alice glass when i was 16 :(

27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
ilmari

28. Do you get a lot of colds?
yes

29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
mango

30. Does anyone hate you?
doubt it

31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?
no

32. Do you like watching scary movies?
yes!

33. Do you want your tongue pierced?
my tongue just so happens to be pierced, but i'm going to take it out some day when i'm not as lazy as usually

34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
fffff. that one really shitty year when i'm middle aged and divorce and my kids hate me and i'm considering selling a kidney to get a face lift and a louis vuitton wallet to match my h&m gear lol

35. Did you have a dream last night?
cnt remember

37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
idk maybe tho

38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
surely

39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
no

40. Did you have a good day yesterday?
twas alright

41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?
yes

42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?
prolly

43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
yes lol liars

44. What’s the best part about school?
lasagna

45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
i do

49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?
no, fortunately

50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?
nothing

52. Are you nice to everyone?
i try to, but if they're not nice to me i probably don't have the energy or capacity to be nice to them

53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
yes

55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
no! i'm so bad

58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?
couldn't care less, boys and girls and everything outside and in between

65. Are your toenails painted pink?
no. i hate touching my toenails so painting them is awful

66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?
probably

67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?
haha what?? why would i want someone to be sad and cry? unless they've been really depressed and haven't even been able to cry then sure but it still wouldn't be like my favorite thing

70. How do you look right now?
cozy




l8r make and laura are coming over to play some cosmic encounter.
yesterday i didn't do anything, we got up at like 5pm and ate tons and watched the first harry potter film and then played some mr. jack.
on friday antonia (=my new girlcrush), aino (=4evs girlcrush), ilmari (=waifu) and moi went to roska. i really don't remember almost anything... what i do remember was fun tho!

here's a stupid pic of me looking old and tired and sad wearing unif's clarity bustier.



bye.

I HOPE MY 25 BMI MAKES YOU VOMIT

in two hours i've got my last shift of a 8-day murder work streak. i think i've developed stockholm syndrome, because it's like i don't even care lol.

here are some outfit pix of varying quality (outfits, pictures are all the same awful quality as always) and age.




(extremely difficult to put on) top: gina tricot
skirt: emilyk
shoes: y.r.u
jacket: ilmari's





this outfit is so bad but i didn't have anything clean and the cat clutch is so brill it still needs to be posted.





coat: gina tricot
skirt: weekday

since i've only been going to work, i've only been wearing my most comfortable shoes. i might sell some of my mega heels to buy more basic platforms in different colors because clearly i use them more than any other shoes.



everything else i've been doing.

my heart is yearning for spyro 3 while waiting for kingdom hearts 2.5. fortunately next week all my favorite shows (carrie diaries, awkward, pretty little liars halloween special and ravenswood premier) are returning to serve as distraction. i'm somewhat exited for the new american horror story because of the aesthetics and interesting moral questions it arises and jessica lange's character, but i'm so over all stupid gore, wasn't asylum enough?

gotta stuff my face with make up and shop for some pu bustiers before work.
toodles ma poodles.

INTELLIGENCE -97 DEXTERITY -122

i have a strong feeling soylent will save my life.

HAPPY 55TH BIRTHDAY TO MOI

BOSS ANGELES

i'm still waiting for my neo boots to arrive, desperately awaiting the customs bill. bought some more unif and dimepiece as soon as i got up today because it's my ✩✩payday yayday✩✩, and because of some karmaloop code in my inbox that actually, for once, did apply to something that i wanted, which is just glorious.



today i'm going shopping for stevia. i'm crazy about it, like what's better than stevia in the entire world? i don't even know why i think stevia is so great, i just do. i want the stevia-logo tattooed on me. i'm also going to buy coconut flour and miracle noodles and a blender ヽ(●⌒∇⌒●)ﾉ
and then i'm going to have to chill out, a lot.

i have this stupid six-hour evening shift which ends, you know it, at midnight. so i'll have to wait until 00:20 to see the last episode of breaking bad, and so does poor ilmari who gets off work at 4pm already, but he's so kind he waits for me :):):) i'm so stoked tho!
right now i'm about to watch the newest episode of antm, didn't get a chance during the weekend. then i'm going to start kh re:chain of memories.

MY MIND IS JUST KINGDOM HEARTS SO NO TITLE YO

i had a glorious weekend.
on friday ilmari and i went to see for love's sake which i can't recommend to anyone but i still partially loved and as a concept i can hardly think of anything i'd love more.
on saturday we hung around and went to visit my mom and brother and then went to see this estonian film called mushrooming, which was brilliant, and then went to this bar, helsinki underground, which was a complete mess in a good way.
on sunday we played hours of video games and then went to see upstream color, which i liked a lot, too.

yesterday was a bad day, i was really tired and went to work and soon got a terrible migraine and had to come home and lay in the dark and it felt like my eyes would pop out.

today i've got a nine hour evening shift so i ain't doing nothinnn but tomorrow i'm having a day off so i'm going to see tavarataivas by myself which i've wanted to see for a long time already but haven't gotten around to do yet.

otherwise, i've received some "dope" stuff in the mail.
first and foremost, leopard hellbounds.



they're super nice.

and second, a cat clutch. this is just beyond awesome, i'll have to post some lame outfit pic just so you can see how brill it is in action.



lol these pix are so bad lol lol lol i'll take glorious pix one day i swear. this was purposefully bad tho u guys

then ilmari made me a shoe shelf because my shoes are too big and there's too many of them for any store bought solution (actually he just put it up, i bought it and all but i like the 50s feel of the previous sentence, so)



my neo boots and some other stuff are still somewhere on the way but i hope to get them before the end of the month.


How would you describe your style?
junkie goth cyber babe jersey magic girl-kei

Who is your fashion role model?
the late daul kim, cyber goths, post punk bands,

What are you wardrobe staples?
dresses, big shoes, big coats, silly bags

Most expensive item in your closet?
i don't know, i don't think i own very expensive clothes rly. i have a few somewhat pricey shoes, hellbounds for example

Most wanted item?
currently, minkpink farshion coat

Favorite Designer?
alexander mcqueen 4shou

How much do you spend on clothes?
probably between 100€-500€ a month. shiit :T

What are your favorite places to shop?
irl h&m, weekday and zara. i should visit that one store, empire, that sells unif and stuff more often to support it, but it's just so far awayyyyy (no it's not, i've just become so incredibly lazy to leave the very core of helsinki nowadays). online dolls kill, nasty gal, yayer.


Favorite fragrance?
still trying to decide between couture couture by juicy couture and the basic lolita lempicka one

Whats your favorite way to do your hair?
nothing, i'm just happy if it doesn't look like a melted nest

What is your go-to outfit when you have no idea what to wear?
comfortable, all black; skater skirt or dress with cropped knit or top over and yru platforms

Piercings:
nape, nipple and tongue. thinking of getting rid of the tongue one, it never shows and it looks a bit silly on me

Tattoos:
nope, tattoos bore me to death

Boyfriend/Girlfriend:
what about it?

Overused Phrase:
oh god...

Animal:
giraffes, aye-aye, birds and especially peacocks

Drink:
cherry coke zero!!! ugh

Tv show:
hannah montana, pretty little liars, breaking bad, anything gordon ramsay, arrested development, happy endings, don't trust the bitch in apartment 23, hana yori dango, neon genesis evangelion, upotte

Movie:
lost in translation, love exposure

Actor/Actress:
jennifer lawrence, tom cruise and christian bale just because i mean how could he not

Pepsi or Coke:
coke but i think pepsi max is good too

Mc Donalds or Burger King:
i'm gonna go with mcdonald's bc it's been such a long time since i've had burger king so i wouldn't remeber correctly

Kiss or Hug:
both :I

Dog or Cat:
dog

Rap or Punk:
i really enjoy both, currently i'm listening more to rap tho

Summer or Winter:
summer, because of the light

Scary Movies or Funny Movies:
both, combos work too

Love or Money:
love

Want to go to College:
nah

Do you Smoke:
i might bum a cigarette once every two weeks, so i've basically quit


here's moi from two weeks ago
ta-dah
i'm abt to b late for work ick